Hot Flashes?

Is this what it is I'm going through? The weather has been cooler but I have been so warm to the point that I'm sweating! Sometimes I'll wake up in the morning and it will feel as though I have been in a sauna all night! At first I thought that maybe I had the flu or a virus but it has lasted for a few weeks now. I'm not in any physical pain except for the occassional headache and my gums hurting every once in a while. I think back to that "All In The Family" episode when Edith Bunker was going through it and it sounds like a lot of what I'm going through.

What Do I Like To Do For Fun?

Interesting question that I saw on one of the message boards and I thought that I would answer it......

 

It really depends

 

I enjoy my peace and quite but I love a good wine along with a good meal along with a good conversation.  Today would be perfect for that because its cold and rainy outside plus its windy.

 

Maybe I'm just old fashioned and/or mellowing in my age-maybe?

My Blog's Worth?

I don't know what's up with that little button at the bottom of my blog.  Its supposed to show what my blog is worth?  If its really worth $0.00 then I'm really going to have to do something to "up the ante"!

I've Been Away For Awhile But Now I'm Back!

Things have been overwhelming and I am just getting back to the calm!

 

I'm going over my email because I have a lot of catching up to do.

 

I still do think of myself as a Goddess and this whole "Financial Dominatrix" thing still interests me.  In fact I'm going to have to go over my past posts just to see where I left off at!  I do already kind of know where I left off at.

Wow! I haven't posted since August!

Don't worry though - I'm still around-LOL! Have I changed my views? - No! Am I still a Goddess? - Yes!

I Am Inforcing A Rule!

To differentiate the true money slaves from the unfaithful pay slaves I am enforcing an application be completed and a mandatory tribute within 20 minutes of finishing it. Failure to do so will result in my refusal to acknowledge that you exist.  Excluding and falsifying information on the application will render it void. Any chance to serve me will be forfeited then you will be blacklisted. Do not contact me for free attention because I simply will not provide it.  If you are seeking that type of relationship, there are plenty of online dating groups you can join. I am the bitch that you were afraid to approach growing up. I am the woman you desire but can't have. I am everything you want to be and everything you can never attain. My flawlessness is your weakness. My talents will lead to your demise. You can feel it in your bones which explains why you are still reading my page!

My Rules!

It is indeed a fact that you will never understand why you exist until you pocess the ability to submit to me! Many of you will come, try and fail terribly but a few of you who are the "chosen" shall master submission to me and gain my acceptance. It is your calling to help ensure that I am happy and well cared for! You will Make this known by serving me faithfully. Your mere reason for being is to be of service to the master of supremacy ! You will learn my rules, the laws of my land and you will embed them into your conscious and subconscious self. The only way that you will ever feel complete is by serving me, I am the way, the truth and the light. You sought me, found me now you
must convince me you are worthy of being in my presence. Your reason for being is only a few thousand dollars away ! You will carry the my Seal of servititude with pride and dignity. You will earn your keep. It is your duty to do something meaningful with the money you have and there is nothing more meaningful then satisfying your Mistress. I am here to be adorned, worshipped, admired and feared this is my place. It will benefit you greatly to be obedient for disobedience, mischeif, and wickedness will cost you more. It is so that the wealth of the wicked shall benefit the righteous ! If there is anything that stands between you and your Goddess remove yourself from it, so that you will not loose favor and be cut off.

I Am!

After a long and fruitless journey living the myth of women being submissive to men. I discovered that the natural dominance and agression I contain cannot be tamed. I am now asserting myself into my rightful position, wearing the title that I was given by way of birth, you will honor me, you will obey me, and you will learn to love it. Because I said so, because it is so, and because there is no other way into my world. My world is a wonderful place, where a big, beautiful and elegant chocolate Goddesss rules all things ! I am the alpha
and omega.

Having some more Yahoo problems....

I was answering some of my email and found out that some of it is a little old.  Some of the email is from Yahoo 360 which I am having trouble accessing.  So while I'm trying to solve the problem I,ll also try to keep up with the email as well.

A Massage For You?

Actually I'm playing around with words.  Although paying me a tribute is the first step that you have to take in order for this Mistress to take you seriously, there are other things that bring me pleasure as well.

The topic of massages came up and I thought that wasn't a bad idea.  Who would get more pleasure from the massage?  Me or my slave?  What about massaging me with oil?  Again, who would get the most pleasure from this - me or you?

Underwear?

What Your Underwear Says About You

You're a total rebel who doesn't conform to any rules. P.S. - It's a jungle down there! You're also way too lazy to do your laundry more than a few times a year.

The Underwear Oracle

I LOVE flirting with married men!

They always seem to be more horny than the single men!  Why that is I will never know.  I just figured that since they were married that they were getting all the sex that they could handle!  Well I guess they aren't though.

I love teasing them and flirting with them.  It doesn't take much to get them going either!  I think they love it too.

I Haven't Posted In A Few Days.....

Did you miss me? Good! A good Domme knows how to make her subs squirm!

Am I A Bitch?

You bet I am!  Men can be such jerks sometimes.  You let them know that you have a webcam and then they talk sweetly to you to "let them in" and once you let them in they start giving orders!  Well I don't take orders - I GIVE them!  And if you can't handle that then move on!

Flirting With A Married Man?

Do you know what your husband is doing?

This afternoon I "flirted" with "Bob" who's a married man who was home alone.  Let's just say that I made him feel REAL good!  Of course after that I was flooded with so many pm requests that my computer crashed!

Think I'm A Tease?

You BET I am!  And that is why you keep cuming back for more!

Would You Like To Hear Your Mistress's Voice?

Go to my personal ad at:

http://fantasyxyz.bravehost.com/personals.htm

Hear what I sound like and then decide for yourself

Do you want to be dominated?

I offer distance domination via email to slaves who wish to devote themselves to Me from afar.

Remember slave, My time is extremely valuable and regular email is most definitely a privilege.

I provide an email domination service for all slaves .

The charge is $50 a month for 2 emails a month

Serve your mistress NOW!

ICQ trouble!

I'm having a little trouble signing on ICQ.  It could just be a matter of memory or hard drive space or my computer's mood but I hope to solve the problem soon and you can reach me by email.

I'm Feeling A Little Bit Down Today....

There's a LOT of bull when you're a Financial Dom!  Men want to talk but they don't want to pay, they don't want to tribute and they just want to waste my time.  I f you don't feel I'm worth paying tribute to then there is no sense in me wasting your time because until you pay me a tribute there will be no conversation, no chat, no anything.  Why is it so hard and why do you make it so difficult.  Paying me a tribute is as simple as just clicking the button!  But no the men want to do everything BUT that.  That is probably why so many women complain about this also. 

Men want what they want.  But you are not going to get what you want until I get what I want! 

The Goddess Has Spoken!

You will answer to MY needs!

You are confused about whether you want to remain a REAL man or serve as one of my play things. My divinity and perfection will lead you down the road of ruin and destruction. You will answer to my needs, wants, and desires rather than your own. As a docile lackey you already have internalized  how menial your life is without an intelligent female like myself to control you. A slave's life serves little purpose without his mistress. Remember I don't need you, you need me. If you are not willing to yield to me financially, mentally, and/or physically do not continue bother me! I do not speak with fake slaves who like to pretend they have pure intentions. Under my reign you will discover how trifling you really are. Your need to sexual satisfy those disgusting manly urges and ejaculate will become a distant memory. Your penis will be clasped between your thighs and possibly never seen again. Once I own a submissive he is my property. He/she is a hardworking mule on my territory used to help me prosper. If you are an individual who possesses any self-respect or intrinsic value, my slave institution does not suit your needs. My services are appropriate for those who seek to be objectified and subject themselves to derogatory treatment. As long as you remember your status beneath and understand you will never be of my equal, you are welcome to contact me.

Preferred Age?

I would much rather prefer having my subs be at least a little bit older than me.  That narrows it down a lot but like I said before in an earlier post I just prefer older men.  Older men have a much slower pace than younger guys.  Most younger guys have just too much energy for me!

Your Chocolate Goddess LOVES Hot Chocolate!

I made myself a cup tonight and I thought I would let my admirers know that I love hot chocolate!  I love sipping it in front of a warm fireplace while the weather is cold outside!

You would have to make it for me of course!  Probably wearing an apron and nothing else!  It might also help if you are a good cook because as you can see I LOVE to eat!  I would much prefer some type of little cake or pastry, served to me with a smile and something that you made with your own two hands! 

Now if you aren't a cook then I would just have to be content with something that you bought (with your own money of course!) at the store.  If this offering is for me I hope that you have gone to one of the most expensive/exclusive pastry/bakery shops in the area.  Heck I might even make you drive out of town to go to somewhere I like!  I like to have the best and I DESERVE to have the best and that is something that YOU have to agree with!

I KNOW what men want.....

But you know what?  You are NOT going to get it until you pay a tribute to me.  I don't care how much you flatter, beg or plead!  Time and time again I will get email, IM's and chat requests from men and they just don't get it.  Until you *PAY* your respects I don't and won't do anything!

What is a money slave?

What is money slavery and financial domination?

In a nutshell, it is the spiritual act of serving manifested by the money & gifts you give… your cash is the proxy for your very soul. If I cannot physically beat you in cyberspace, I can certainly make you hurt in many more creative ways. If you cannot kneel before Me in person, you can certainly offer your heart to Me on a platter by becoming a money slave.

Men!

I can't understand the requests.  Actually I do understand and I'm just trying to be polite.  It's no use in you sending me webcam, chat and roleplay requests unless you have first PAID YOUR RESPECTS!

In no other shape or form will I honor your request.  If you don't believe me then try and see if I will do it!  You are going to be quite disappointed!

Sad - but it doesn't have to be

I belong to a forum and a woman recently posted about how everytime that she mentions that she is a big beautiful woman (bbw) it turns men off!  The replies that she got were very inspiring - basically saying that just because one man doesn't like you that doesn't mean that all of them won't like you.  Everybody has different tastes and there is a man (or men) out there for every woman because every woman is beautiful in her own way!

BBBW?

Did you know that some men still don't know what BBBW means?

My Favorite Perfume?

It is by Avon and I won't say the name but this perfume has worked wonders for me!  It must have something to do with my body's chemistry but everytime I wear it I get compliments from both men and women!

I always wear it when I want to "seduce" somebody (-:

I Am....

After a long and fruitless journey living the myth of women being submissive to men. I discovered that the natural dominance and agression I contain cannot be tamed. I am now asserting myself into my rightful position, wearing the title that I was given by way of birth, you will honor me, you will obey me, and you will learn to love it. Because I said so, because it is so, and because there is no other way into my world. My world is a wonderful place, where a big beautiful and elegant chocolate Goddesss rules all things ! I am the alpha and omega.   

BBBW Webring

Well I couldn't find one that I liked.  One sounded quite nice but it was a little too tame for me.  I want to be in a webring that celebrates being a BBBW in all of its erotic and sensual glory!  So I'm thinking about starting one myself.

It will be for BBBW Admirers too.

Guys with Webcams.....

Sometimes they can be sooooooo pushy!  Even though a gal has a webcam she would still like to be asked nicely and not pushed or bullied or yelled into a private webcam chat.  I think that is why a lot of women shy away from doing it.  If the guys would just be a gentleman and ask a little bit more nicer...................

My First Admirer?

You know my first "admirer" was strictly by accident.  He had sent me "little" something and said that he had wanted me to be happy and to thank me for giving him such a good time on the Internet.  Of course you know me!  I kind of liked it and decided that I wanted more - so that's how I started my little "business"!

By the way I still talk to my "first" every now and then - he is still very, very sweet!

When you view my Yahoo Profile

don't forget to visit my main home page at:

http://fantasyxyz.bravehost.com

my ICQ# is 140204112

I'm listed as a sex blog?

That's kind of interesting!  And its also kind of surprising since this is the first time that my blog has been listed like that.  I guess I going to have to make them proud!

How Old is Too Old?

I got this from a webpage:

What if I am too old/ugly to have an adult site?

Do you know what the answer was?  Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and one of the most popular adult websites belongs to a 61 year old woman!

How do I start my own adult website?

I see people asking about this all the time!  There's not too much that you need.  You do need a website.  You can either have your own personal website or you can use one of the websites that provides website space for free.  How are you going to make money from your website?  Are you going to post pictures, video or webcam shots and charge a subscription?  Or are you going to provide a more individual "personal" service?  It is up to you.

Older Men?

I tend to gravitate more to older men.  I LOVE older men that have that "salt and pepper" hair.  I also find that the pace is a lot more slower with older men.  They have just been around longer and don't feel the need to rush at everything.  Sometimes a woman just likes to be slowly seduced and not just rushed into everything.  Older guys like to take their time and they are especially more motivated when they know that they are being appreciated!  That just spurs them on even more!

About Me?

Well I finally got around to taking a picture of myself and putting it online.  It doesn't look like it came out too good but I'm just glad that I was able to get ANY picture online!

BBBW Chats?

I found it very interesting that I couldn't find any bbbw chats listed so I decided to start one (or two) of my own!  That way I'm ready to chat with anyone anytime and I can also set up the chat(s) as well!

What Kind Of Boyfriend Would I Have?

Everyone thinks he's a bad person, that he has no heart and that he couldn't love or ever be loved. Well, you just proved those ignorants wrong. This dude would go thirty times around the earth if you would ask him to. A person who threatens you must really have a death wish.

"Take this quiz at Quizilla"

What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)

Me & Yahoo?

I have been having a lot of problems trying to get to my Yahoo Pages!  Every now and then something will act up and I'm not able to get to my pages.  I can still do the Yahoo Messenger Thing with the chats and the webcams its just the Yahoo pages that I'm having troubles signing in to. 

Yahoo Webcam Chat(s)

I had to close my last session because all the requests for being able to view my webcam crashed my computer!  Sorry about that!

I guess he thought I was kidding!

A guy visited my website, saw the donation button and thought I was kidding!  Well I politely (and quickly) set him straight!  He thought he could sweet talk me into sending him a couple of pictures but he found out right away that HE had to send ME something first!

Another Blog?

Here's a link to my newest blog (or should I say "latest" blog).

http://www.frappr.com/fantasyxyz

I just joined this site and am learning my way around

I haven't posted in a while!

I haven't posted in a VERY long while!  I've seen a few other blogs by other black women but I haven't had a chance to look at them recently.  Glad to know that there are others out there like me that have a blog though and I want to visit and post to them too.

Well I started my little Webcam Page and Business

I kept hearing about it and people keep asking about it so I decided to find out for myself.  If it works I might even start a directly for other bbbw's that want to let everyone know about them.

So far its not too difficult.  I have my webcam and I took a picture of my tiny, tiny little bedroom.  Of course now that its online I'm going to have to make it look better!  What can I say?  As long as I have a bed to sleep in I'm cool!

Starting My Little Webcam Business......

Well we are going to see how it goes.  Everybody keeps talking about starting their own webcam business so now I decided to start my own as well. 

A lot of guys have emailed me but they have to show me a token of affection first before I will do anything.  As a matter of fact why just show me the token of affection without me having to do anything for it?

Internet Whore?

I'm really getting very curious about all the plus-sized women that say that they have earned a lot of money online.  I'm thinking that I might want to try it myself just to see if all the claims they are making are true.

Taking a few "intimate" photos of myself for my "special" clients?  And then emailing the photos to them?  I would probably start off with 2 photos per client just to see how far I could go.  I wonder how many clients would want to see a plus-sized black woman?

Another Valentine's Day has come and gone.....

I forgot about it until I saw an email - actually it was a spam/junk email.  Oh what did I do that day?  You know I really don't remember but I can tell you for sure that it wasn't anything romantic.  I am definitely going to have to work on that!  What would I have liked?  A nice romantic dinner with the guy cooking the food at his place and us enjoying the dinner in front of his fireplace with romantic music playing!

What kind of boyfriend?

Everyone thinks he's a bad person, that he has no heart and that he couldn't love or ever be loved. Well, you just proved those ignorants wrong. This dude would go thirty times around the earth if you would ask him to. A person who threatens you must really have a death wish. What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^) brought to you by Quizilla

To tell you the truth I think that this is kind of cute! If only we could choose the type of boyfriend that we could have because I already have one in mind - of course he doesn't know it yet!

My feet are bigger than I thought!

So here I am sipping some hot tea ('cause its cold and windy outside) and I decide to try on my new slippers that I bought because they were on sale! They are supposed to be for sizes 9-10 but I slipped them on and I can feel my toes pushing against the sides! My feet can't be larger than a size 10! Can they! So now you know that I have got big feet!

It's Been Awhile!

I can't believe that it's been over 2 months since I last posted here! There hasn't been a lot going on but that doesn't mean that nothing has been going on! I'm still single and to be absolutely honest I think that I want it to stay that way for now! I was kind of thinking about what kind of man it would take to make me want to "up and get married" right away and I can't honestly think of any kind...............too happy being single!